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InsaneJournal for adventureofpete.
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| Monday, May 3rd, 2010 |
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http://dinersjournal.blogs.nytimes.c Should Tom Douglas have won best restauranteur? Probably. Do I care since Keith McNally won? Not really. This just reaffirms it. I'm so lucky to have my job in the best food city in the world with an award winning restauranteur. And I have Ellie. Could things be any better? |
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| Friday, April 2nd, 2010 |
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Date with Ellie went really well. We talked about why our work is so important to us and for the first time, I feel like someone gets it. She also doesn't play games, which is refreshing for a change. It's been so long since I've felt like this that I don't know what to do with myself to keep from thinking about her. I don't know why I wasted so many years thinking about what could have been with Laine. It was never a great relationship to begin with, but maybe I thought it was because it was all I knew. Plus, four years later, she's exactly the same. Why would I want to be with someone so petty? I'm ready to move forward with my life though in terms of relationships. No expectations, no hopes for what might happen in the future with her, but just ready to embrace my feelings and see where this goes. |
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| Thursday, March 25th, 2010 |
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Reason #39058234 why I stayed out of the dating game so long: I forgot how much of a good impression you have to make on the first date without coming off as an insincere prick. Here's to hoping I have better ideas by Monday morning... |
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| Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010 |
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I shouldn't care. If this career path I'm on has taught me anything, it's that for a budding chef right out of culinary school, relationships don't work. My schedule's a mess, and once I got into school I knew that my personal life would be second and after all that had gone down in high school, it was just fine for that to be put on the back burner. Except now, there's Ellie. Who makes me think maybe that a relationship wouldn't be so bad. That maybe there's something missing in my life. That maybe it is possible to have a relationship with someone who isn't 1) A jealous vengeful psychopath or 2) Completely broken. Maybe there could be some normalcy in a relationship. But those are all things I should have figured out years ago, without all this repressing and avoidance of feelings just because it hurt too much to think. Even though this thing with Ellie can go nowhere, it signals to me that maybe it is possible to move on - not necessarily pursuing relationships, but not outright avoiding them either. These stupid ridiculous thoughts about Ellie might be a sign that it's time to stop using my work as an excuse and maybe - just maybe, I could put myself out there and things wouldn't be so bad. |
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| Tuesday, January 5th, 2010 |
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| Monday, October 19th, 2009 |
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When you look over your shoulder And you see the life that you've left behind When you think it over do you ever wonder? What it is that holds your life ( so close to mine ) |
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